hello for everyone who read this.
you know what? life is fair. sometimes you lose someone, then you got someone new. sometimes you have a lot of money, then you have nothing. sometimes you have too many spirits, then become lazybones. hahahaha.
I realize that I was wasting my entire times and I won't do that anymore for now on. this is my mission:
1. I will not wait to do anything. If I have something to do, I will do it. No wait.
2. I will not overthinking for something which is not important. like love.
3. I will be someone who has no doubt and fearless. If I have something to say, have no doubt, I will say it.
4. I will never wasting my time.
5. I will not think about what everyone thinks about me, I just will listen it.
6.and no matter how weird I look, I will wear what I want to wear. I will be my self.
Rabu, 05 Agustus 2015
Rabu, 18 Maret 2015
Teenangers?
hello guys, I wanna share about something.
you know?
I feel like there are so many things happen after I got 17.
and for me, to be a teenage is the hardest time. you should face any problems, but your mental isn't ready.
teenager love. you will get frustated, desperate, and don't know how to choose between the thing you should hold on or the thing you should let go.
you start to plan your future. how you will take your education, how you will treat your parents when they are getting old, how you earn money by your self, how your marriage, how your work, and etc.
then before you do all of them, you want to spend everyminute with your friends, and too lazy to go home.
the time when all you want is just to be happy, don't care about people who judge you. as long as you are happy, you will keep doing it.
you listen to a songs more often, you do not just listen but sometimes you understand the lyrics, and the song is speak louder than your mouth. do you?
you want to be understood, you want to be listened, and you want to be cared. but other people also busy with their own world. then you just sad, don't know how, but you did.
then you start to love someone, but the love is so difficult, maybe they don't love you back, maybe the distance, or maybe religious difference. isn't it?
it's so difficult but it's real.
you get insomnia. you couldn't sleep at night, and couldn't wake up at morning.
just because you think about too much things at night. people always call it overthinking.
and when you are with your friends, you laugh uncontrolable, you talk about many stupid and dirty things, like you don't have any problems. "but deep inside you are bleeding." and when you arrived at your home, you cry in your room. you scream, you listen to song loudly, so there is no one know that you are crying.
but guys, I don't even really know about other teenagers feel, but everything I wrote above, are everything which happen to me. do you feel the same?
you know?
I feel like there are so many things happen after I got 17.
and for me, to be a teenage is the hardest time. you should face any problems, but your mental isn't ready.
teenager love. you will get frustated, desperate, and don't know how to choose between the thing you should hold on or the thing you should let go.
you start to plan your future. how you will take your education, how you will treat your parents when they are getting old, how you earn money by your self, how your marriage, how your work, and etc.
then before you do all of them, you want to spend everyminute with your friends, and too lazy to go home.
the time when all you want is just to be happy, don't care about people who judge you. as long as you are happy, you will keep doing it.
you listen to a songs more often, you do not just listen but sometimes you understand the lyrics, and the song is speak louder than your mouth. do you?
you want to be understood, you want to be listened, and you want to be cared. but other people also busy with their own world. then you just sad, don't know how, but you did.
then you start to love someone, but the love is so difficult, maybe they don't love you back, maybe the distance, or maybe religious difference. isn't it?
it's so difficult but it's real.
you get insomnia. you couldn't sleep at night, and couldn't wake up at morning.
just because you think about too much things at night. people always call it overthinking.
and when you are with your friends, you laugh uncontrolable, you talk about many stupid and dirty things, like you don't have any problems. "but deep inside you are bleeding." and when you arrived at your home, you cry in your room. you scream, you listen to song loudly, so there is no one know that you are crying.
but guys, I don't even really know about other teenagers feel, but everything I wrote above, are everything which happen to me. do you feel the same?
Rabu, 04 Maret 2015
Test Of The Day
hello guys, I want to share something about what happen to me today.
today I have TOEIC, and the test was so terrible. you know, the time was so short, and I couldn't handle it.
because of lacked of time, I couldn't finish it properly -_-
I was focusing with the listening test, that's why I couldn't finish the reading test.
there were 200 questios, and when the remaining time was only 10 minutes, I wasn't answer question number 175-200 yet -_- and because the remaining time was so short, I filled my answer sheet with A choice. it was so disgusting heuuung -_- I answer 25 numbers unproperly T_T
okay, but today I learn something.
sometimes, you shouldn't only focused with one thing, you should balanced everything around you.
no thing is overage and no thing is shortage. but balance!
because when you try really best in one thing, and forget about other things, that other things will getting worse.
today I have TOEIC, and the test was so terrible. you know, the time was so short, and I couldn't handle it.
because of lacked of time, I couldn't finish it properly -_-
I was focusing with the listening test, that's why I couldn't finish the reading test.
there were 200 questios, and when the remaining time was only 10 minutes, I wasn't answer question number 175-200 yet -_- and because the remaining time was so short, I filled my answer sheet with A choice. it was so disgusting heuuung -_- I answer 25 numbers unproperly T_T
okay, but today I learn something.
sometimes, you shouldn't only focused with one thing, you should balanced everything around you.
no thing is overage and no thing is shortage. but balance!
because when you try really best in one thing, and forget about other things, that other things will getting worse.
Minggu, 15 Februari 2015
New Habit?
hello~
I want to tell something, and to be honest, i don't even know since when I love that thing -_-
READING.
I love reading for these several days hahaha. I go to school library more often, and I read some books. it is really strange for me hehe, remember that before these time, I was really lazy to reading and never visit library, hahaha.
now I'm at school library, sitting at the corner, and writing this post. I don't know that reading book will be that interesting for me haha. I wish I will always reading book like this, no lazy and no spend time for unimportant thing. AMIN.
I want to tell something, and to be honest, i don't even know since when I love that thing -_-
READING.
I love reading for these several days hahaha. I go to school library more often, and I read some books. it is really strange for me hehe, remember that before these time, I was really lazy to reading and never visit library, hahaha.
now I'm at school library, sitting at the corner, and writing this post. I don't know that reading book will be that interesting for me haha. I wish I will always reading book like this, no lazy and no spend time for unimportant thing. AMIN.
Jumat, 27 Juni 2014
don't think too much!
hai bloggy, apa kabar visitor dan lain-lain. haha gue juga nggak yakin kalo blog ini ada visitornya. wkwkwk. entahlah gue cuman lagi pengen aja nulis-nulis di blog nggak jelas ini. sebenernya gue udah pengen ngehapus beberapa postingan di blog ini. tapi yasudahlah, biarin aja.
yang pasti sekarang kehidupan gue berubah banget lah. seiring sama bertambahnya umur gue.
yang gue tau, kehidupan itu berputar. kehidupan itu nggak selamanya indah.
ada kalanya gue jatuh, sakit, berdarah, kecewa, sedih, tapi ayolah, itu yang bikin hidup jadi seru.
kalo gue gk ngerasain itu semua, gue nggak mungkin ngerasain 'betapa bahagianya ketika bangkit'.
di sekitar gue, gue tau ada banyak orang yang ngesupport gue, sayang sama gue, takut kehilangan gue, tapi dibalik itu semua, pasti ada yang nggak suka, benci, iri, dan lain-lain.
tapi apa peduli gue? ck~
hidup gue mau gue bikin bahagia, tanpa memikirkan sisi negatif dari 'sekitar' gue. kalo hidup lu bikin susah, mending nggak usah hidup wahahaha. plis ya bro, Allah selalu bersama kita. Allah menyiapkan sesuatu yang terbaik buat kita.
so? masih pengen merutuki hidup? haha~
emang sih, kadang, hal yang paling bikin manusia susah itu 'sakit hati'. gue juga pernah kok ngerasain, sering malah, wahahaha~
tapi semakin kesini, gue semakin sadar kalo kita harus positif thinking sama semua itu. setiap hal kecil yang terjadi sama kita, pasti ada hikmahnya.
disakitin orang?
itu berarti, Allah nggak meridhoi lu sama orang itu. Allah akan memberi orang yang lebih baik dari orang yang nyakitin lu itu. jangan terlalu kebawa sedih, harus mau dan berusaha move on. bahagia hidup lu, lu sendiri yang tentuin. jangan bergantung pada orang lain, apalagi orang yang nyakitin lu. itu bodoh banget men.
tapi juga,
jangan benci sama orang yang nyakitin lu itu. benci itu hal yang negatif kan? jadi, buang aja. ganti 'benci' lu dengan, 'dia bikin aku belajar, kalo hidup emang ada sakitnya. dan sekarang aku harus buktiin ke dia, kalo aku bisa sembuh, lalu bahagia tanpa dia.'
dan!!! buat dia sadar kalo dia udah sia-siain orang yang sangat berharga! =))
akhir kata ada #pengalamanpribadi LOL
yang pasti sekarang kehidupan gue berubah banget lah. seiring sama bertambahnya umur gue.
yang gue tau, kehidupan itu berputar. kehidupan itu nggak selamanya indah.
ada kalanya gue jatuh, sakit, berdarah, kecewa, sedih, tapi ayolah, itu yang bikin hidup jadi seru.
kalo gue gk ngerasain itu semua, gue nggak mungkin ngerasain 'betapa bahagianya ketika bangkit'.
di sekitar gue, gue tau ada banyak orang yang ngesupport gue, sayang sama gue, takut kehilangan gue, tapi dibalik itu semua, pasti ada yang nggak suka, benci, iri, dan lain-lain.
tapi apa peduli gue? ck~
hidup gue mau gue bikin bahagia, tanpa memikirkan sisi negatif dari 'sekitar' gue. kalo hidup lu bikin susah, mending nggak usah hidup wahahaha. plis ya bro, Allah selalu bersama kita. Allah menyiapkan sesuatu yang terbaik buat kita.
so? masih pengen merutuki hidup? haha~
emang sih, kadang, hal yang paling bikin manusia susah itu 'sakit hati'. gue juga pernah kok ngerasain, sering malah, wahahaha~
tapi semakin kesini, gue semakin sadar kalo kita harus positif thinking sama semua itu. setiap hal kecil yang terjadi sama kita, pasti ada hikmahnya.
disakitin orang?
itu berarti, Allah nggak meridhoi lu sama orang itu. Allah akan memberi orang yang lebih baik dari orang yang nyakitin lu itu. jangan terlalu kebawa sedih, harus mau dan berusaha move on. bahagia hidup lu, lu sendiri yang tentuin. jangan bergantung pada orang lain, apalagi orang yang nyakitin lu. itu bodoh banget men.
tapi juga,
jangan benci sama orang yang nyakitin lu itu. benci itu hal yang negatif kan? jadi, buang aja. ganti 'benci' lu dengan, 'dia bikin aku belajar, kalo hidup emang ada sakitnya. dan sekarang aku harus buktiin ke dia, kalo aku bisa sembuh, lalu bahagia tanpa dia.'
dan!!! buat dia sadar kalo dia udah sia-siain orang yang sangat berharga! =))
akhir kata ada #pengalamanpribadi LOL
Kamis, 18 Agustus 2011
Sad for a boy?!
hahahahahahaha T.T maybe it will be my first post about 'boy'.
maybe, for a little girl like me,
it's too fast to feel sad about boy,
to feel something indescribeable to a boy,
i'm still 13 years old,
then why should I be that sad?!
my mom says,
I'm not being allowed to have a relationship before 17 years old,
and for me, that's mean....
I couldn't like that boy,
and I will do it.
but sometimes I think it's natural, if I don't like a boy, it's weird.... it's like.... I'm not normal bzzzz -_-
okay okay..... just remember what mom says Yohanna -,-
maybe, for a little girl like me,
it's too fast to feel sad about boy,
to feel something indescribeable to a boy,
i'm still 13 years old,
then why should I be that sad?!
my mom says,
I'm not being allowed to have a relationship before 17 years old,
and for me, that's mean....
I couldn't like that boy,
and I will do it.
but sometimes I think it's natural, if I don't like a boy, it's weird.... it's like.... I'm not normal bzzzz -_-
okay okay..... just remember what mom says Yohanna -,-
Kamis, 13 Januari 2011
Way Back Into Love
hello~ this is one of my favorite song.
eum yeah... although I still don't understand what's the meaning of the lyrics, hahaha maybe because I'm still too young... haha :D
but however, i love this song! ^^
"[Her] I've been living with a shadow over head.
eum yeah... although I still don't understand what's the meaning of the lyrics, hahaha maybe because I'm still too young... haha :D
but however, i love this song! ^^
"[Her] I've been living with a shadow over head.
I've been sleeping with a cloud about my bed.
I've been lonely for so long. Traped in the past I just can't seem to move on.
[Him] I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away.
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday.
I've been setting aside time, to clear a little space in the corners of my mind.
[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through with out a way back into love.
Ooohhhhhoooo.
[Her] I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine.
I've been searching but I just dont see the signs.
I know that it's out there, theres gotta be something for my soul somewhere.
[Him] I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
not somebody just to get me through the night.
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions.
[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it throw with out a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again.
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end.
Ooooohhhoooohhhoo ooohhhohooooo hhooohhoooo
[Her] There are moment when I don't know if its real,
or if anybody feels the way I feel.
I need insperation, not just another negotiation.
[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it throw with out a way back into love.
And if I open my heart to you. I'm hoping you'll show me what to do.
And if you help me to start again. You know that I'll be there for you in the end.
ooohhhooohhooo ooooohhooo oh oh woaho woaho woahohooo woaho woahohoooo."
Rabu, 03 November 2010
Say Hello~
hello~ this is my blog....
I'm just a little girl who still don't know, about everything in this life.
I'm just a Junior High School student that still don't know, what is life.
why am I standing in this world,
why I have a name,
why my name is Yohanna Kharisma Barokah,
and why I made this blog.
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