Teenangers?

hello guys, I wanna share about something.
you know?
I feel like there are so many things happen after I got 17.
and for me, to be a teenage is the hardest time. you should face any problems, but your mental isn't ready.
teenager love. you will get frustated, desperate, and don't know how to choose between the thing you should hold on or the thing you should let go.
you start to plan your future. how you will take your education, how you will treat your parents when they are getting old, how you earn money by your self, how your marriage, how your work, and etc.
then before you do all of them, you want to spend everyminute with your friends, and too lazy to go home.
the time when all you want is just to be happy, don't care about people who judge you. as long as you are happy, you will keep doing it.
you listen to a songs more often, you do not just listen but sometimes you understand the lyrics, and the song is speak louder than your mouth. do you?
you want to be understood, you want to be listened, and you want to be cared. but other people also busy with their own world. then you just sad, don't know how, but you did.
then you start to love someone, but the love is so difficult, maybe they don't love you back, maybe the distance, or maybe religious difference. isn't it?
it's so difficult but it's real.
you get insomnia. you couldn't sleep at night, and couldn't wake up at morning.
just because you think about too much things at night. people always call it overthinking.
and when you are with your friends, you laugh uncontrolable, you talk about many stupid and dirty things, like you don't have any problems. "but deep inside you are bleeding." and when you arrived at your home, you cry in your room. you scream, you listen to song loudly, so there is no one know that you are crying. 

but guys, I don't even really know about other teenagers feel, but everything I wrote above, are everything which happen to me. do you feel the same?

Test Of The Day

hello guys, I want to share something about what happen to me today.
today I have TOEIC, and the test was so terrible. you know, the time was so short, and I couldn't handle it.
because of lacked of time, I couldn't finish it properly -_-
I was focusing with the listening test, that's why I couldn't finish the reading test.
there were 200 questios, and when the remaining time was only 10 minutes, I wasn't answer question number 175-200 yet -_- and because the remaining time was so short, I filled my answer sheet with A choice. it was so disgusting heuuung -_- I answer 25 numbers unproperly T_T

okay, but today I learn something.
sometimes, you shouldn't only focused with one thing, you should balanced everything around you.
no thing is overage and no thing is shortage. but balance!

because when you try really best in one thing, and forget about other things, that other things will getting worse.